Just casually thinking about decorating, as you do. Well I'm more accurately procrastinating about decorating.
There are two ways to approach decorating. One way is to prepare thoroughly - wash down the walls, sand the woodwork, apply primer, undercoat, use masking tape, fill in cracks, etc. The preparation is hard, back-aching work and you often feel like giving up but the final painting process is easier and the end result is very satisfying. The other way is to half heartedly prepare, if at all then endure a difficult painting experience and a less than satisfying end product with streaks and bumps that will haunt you every time you catch sight of them.
I think I'm currently going through the former in my life. Seeing where the lumps and bumps are that need sanding. Filling in the cracks. Preparing myself for the rest of my life. I need to do this to avoid rushing to get the job done knowing I haven't really done it properly. Yes, at times, I question why I am bothering to put all this hard work in especially when I can't see what the end result will be. Heck I don't even know what colour the final paint will be! But that's when my friends and family are there with encouragement to keep going. To see the bigger picture.
Everything that has happened so far in my life has helped to shape who I am in one way or another. Maybe an experience has taught me a lesson, maybe it's a happy memory, maybe it's a reassurance or a warning. So I can't really regret anything that's happened in my life. Believe me - that is a big realisation and a big deal for me! Looking back at even the darkest times in my life, I can see tiny glimmers of positivity and can see that I have pulled through and taken something from what has happened.
There's a bit more preparation still to be done but I'm taking my time over it and trying not to rush. It'll need doing again at some point in the future but for now I'm not thinking about that, just the jb in hand right here, right now.
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