I'm aware I haven't posted for some time. Part of the reason is not knowing exactly what to say. The good thing about this is that for once it's not because of depression. In fact quite the opposite.
One of the mistakes I've made in the past has been relying on other people for my happiness. Not any more. I make my own happiness.
But having someone to share that with is amazing. And today being Valentine's Day, it seems appropriate to recognise this.
A year ago I wrote the following in my journal:
"It's one thing to have a personal date that's hard to get through but dates that are universally known and when everyone else seems to be having a lovely time is even harder.
I don't begrudge anyone their happiness and am glad they have what they have. But it's a very difficult day for me that's difficult to get through.
So just ignore it!
But it's everywhere. TV, social media, restaurants, etc.
It's only one day. But it's a day that's so hard for me. Not just cos I'm single. It's just so difficult to distract myself from.
I promised myself I wouldn't let myself get upset about it this year. But it's overwhelming."
This year I'm embracing it. Yes it's only one day but so are birthdays and Christmas. It's important to recognise and celebrate love every day but having a special day can help focus things a bit.
Embrace the day. Have a hug if you find the day difficult and do something for you.
There's some good stuff going on on social media today. Here's two to start off with:
We actually had our Valentine's Day on Monday. For us, it was about being together, not about spending money or grand gestures. Just celebrating who we are and what we have and what we do for each other.
And because I try to see the positive in every situation now, I wrote her a song...
